Phase 2
I've had a half-written post in front of me for weeks. It took that long for me to figure out why I couldn't seem to write something decent. A month after trying to write this post, I've figured out what the problems were. I'm determined to post this just to break through the block, but I don't think it's going to be any good. First, chemotherapy is making me dumber. Everybody has that moment where they can't remember a word. Luckily, it wasn't a common occurrence for me. My problem wasn't finding the words to express myself... it was what I chose to express and when and where and to whom. 👞→👄 I even used big words like colloquialism and schadenfreude. These days, I can't go more than a few hours without reaching for a word and coming up empty. It's terrifying and I devoutly hope it's temporary. Note: 'devoutly' isn't quite the right word. Neither is 'sincerely'. The correct choice eludes me. At least ...